working again

So my story is now when everybody asks so, are you working - erm no!!

It's not that its reall hard to work around a two year old's schedule, it's like I've slowed down. I cant remeber what age I am anymore - like the sales rep at TRue Fitness the hot yoga fellow smirked at when I got all flustered over this question.

And I crave a bit of a snooze on my stylish but not super comfortable sofa every afternoon at 3pm. I wait for 7pm, so i can meet up with the other superbored mommies in my building (again God's way of getting back at me for laughing at other mommies who did this when I thought I was so cool in my golds gym in the evenings before a drink at purple haze days).

And I am in a hate/ need relationship with my baby nanny of all people - never been driven to tears by somebody else's whims and moods before - aaaaaaaaaargh!!
So all these things need to be sorted out before I can even think about employment.

Can not allow myself to become those scary mothers who live through their children and get very annoyed when the bacchas stymie their ambitions.